This week, I didn’t concentrate so
much on learning new material (or even far-gone material), as I did on
reviewing the sources I knew would be beneficial to me, as I prepared for my final
self-assessment. This momentary pause felt a bit strange, as I am entering
winter break with the motivation to keep studying, but it’s like I’m stopping
forward progress prematurely.
Of
course, such a feeling is right, only insofar as I am feeling it, but the reality
is I have to secure my foundations before I build up, or if you prefer this
metaphor: I need to back-up my knowledge on iCloud Drive (File > Save as
> Remembered (Where: iCloud Drive), before I remove it from my working
Documents (File > Save as > Work in Progress (Where: Documents). Neither
are perfect metaphors, because I will never entirely move on from my “foundations”
or “working documents,” but it’s a way to conceptualize and reaffirm the path I
am on in my language-learning.
Interestingly, and not immediately related
to my language study, my Kinyarwanda notebook has had multiple lives, first as
my companion at a conference commemorating the twentieth anniversary of the Rwandan
Genocide, a thought journal on a trip to Colorado, and then as my Kinyarwanda
notebook. Well, this week, I had to locate a recipe I encountered in Colorado,
and in flipping through the pages, I became distracted by Kinyarwanda and quite
literally (though really figuratively) had to tear myself away in order to
complete my baking, an otherwise leisurely activity for me. Of course, it could
be just the time of the semester that influenced this change, but I’m excited
for it all the same, because it, along with other developments I’ve recorded in
my language-learning blog, evidences the degree to which, however small, my
language study has become an integral part of my life.
It is here that I find myself
approaching language study during break. On the one hand, I think, in some
ways, it will be a little easier, particularly because I don’t have the demands
of other coursework weighing down on me. But without the carefully crafted
schedule that coursework creates and the culture of accountability our weekly
meetings/my blog posts ensures, I fear the possibility that I won’t be fully
committed. With that said, I need to hold myself to account, without the
expectation that others do it for me. If I agree to studying at least one hour
per day, I need to study for that hour, and if I don’t, I need to make it up or
deal with the consequences of my actions. Furthermore, if I am committed to
diligent language study, even if it doesn’t always follow my “plan,” or if I am
not as advanced as I feel I should be, I should re-frame my study over break as
that much more than I would have gained, if I hadn’t studied. Then again,
however, that might be a useful lesson for all time.
Anyway, this was meant to be a
shorter blog post about what I was doing alone, but I allowed thinking about
what I was thinking to extend it! Oops! Back to my studies! I am sure you, my
reader, will appreciate the opportunity to return to yours, as well!